Does anyone else ever feel like being a mommy is all-consuming??? I’m pretty sure it’s that way whether you work full-time, part-time, or are a stay-at-home momma. I really do think it’s part of the take-home packet when you leave the hospital. Now, don’t get me wrong, I am a NEW mommy with ONE baby, who is still less than a year old, so I certainly do not know everything there is to this job, but I do know one thing… It’s HARD and it takes every ounce of energy in you. I absolutely love being home with my baby and I am so blessed to be able to, but I’m also learning that I am not JUST a mommy, even though most days, that’s all I feel like I am because every second of the day is devoted to my little guy.
Before having Baby J, I was a special education teacher. I loved my career. There were challenging days (as with every job), but for the most part, I loved waking up and going to work. I volunteered doing 50 different things. I went out with friends all the time. I had a very, very busy and full life and my identity was wrapped up in what I was doing. When we found out that Baby J was coming to join our family, there was no question that I would quit my job and stay home with our baby. We’d make it work however we could. There was never a discussion about it because that was what I had always wanted for my family and we’ve been blessed to make it work for the last 10 months. We also knew I had to stop volunteering for a time and that I’d need a break from our very busy life to focus on our new little bundle.
Now, after 10 months, I’m learning that there is much more to me than what I do. There is also more that I have a desire to accomplish and do. I’m learning that I am a person with needs too… My only role in life is not just making milk for my baby. So, in other words, I’m learning who I AM (again) and my identity should NEVER be wrapped up in what I do, but it should be wrapped up in who Christ says I am. So, what does that mean for our family? Does that mean I’m going back to teaching? No. Does that mean I’m going back to work? No, not full-time at least. But, it does mean that I am adding more into my life that will make me happy. Things that will make me a better mommy because I am a more whole person. I’m redefining ME while being Baby J’s mommy.
All photos courtesy of: Keira Grace Photography